Photography

I'm typing this on my blogspot only because i know less people read it. Oddly enough i want that.

Erica pointed out that my pictures have a personality a few weeks ago. I never really noticed, but its true. When you take a photo you have to put yourself into it, make sure the photo says your the owner.

As time goes by I'm starting to understand what being a photographer really is. Of course I take photos on the spot like anyone else but when I'm serious things fall into place. Oddly enough when people ask me to teach them photography, I can only teach them my tricks. There is no way I can teach them photography.

I dont want to be the photographer that takes pictures to make a nice photo. I think thats what makes the difference between a generic picture in a really nice frame and a picture in a museum.

Sometimes you look at a photo and you think, oh thats pretty or oh thats nice, and sometimes you look at a photo and your like I want that or I want to be in that. I want my photos to be the latter of the two. Which is why I'm so drawn to food. Food not only embodies the eyes it involves your stomach. Your brain sees food and goes I want that, making your body produce saliva, and making you hungry.

Art makes you feel emotions, and I want my photography to do that.Heck hunger can be an emotion right?

I once read somewhere that abstract is art that says "You could do this, but you didn't" I believe a good photo makes you believe this. I used to complicate photography and try to hard, it only complexes the photo making it lose its potential. God created life so beautiful don't complicate it just capture it. My style slowly changes to minimalism where shots should be as simple and elegant as possible. It gets to an extent where it makes the viewer go "I can do that...but I didn't" In a non-photographers head it makes sense, but a photographer understands that behind a good photo you have to worry about aperture,time of day, necessary light, lens type, and photo shopping style. Not believing in photo shop is basically saying I don't believe in vaccinations. It's a tool only to make you better.

I'm from a family of photographers so I learned photography the hard way. I learned about lenses, shutter speed, and aperture settings first. I was taught the technique not the art, and I know my way around the camera. So when people say that photoshop makes easy photographers it simply doesn't. Photoshop only enhances a photo it doesn't make it. If you are worried that your photos wont be able to compete then that means you still have more practice to do. Photoshop in itself is a art and it can enhance photos to extreme potentials.

Just like plastic surgery photoshop can help or hurt the person your working on. Making a pretty photo is much easier than making a photo have feeling. I still don't believe I have achieved status of a professional photographer. I'm just a amateur that tries to feel the scene and put his feelings in a photo. I now understand Dkwon, who said that he dances to feel the music to understand it.

Artist

During pledge interviews many of the pledges kept on assuming that I was really good at designing and art. I'm in a premedical fraternity out of all things why would they assume that? Just because I design the majority of my fraternities deigns and T-shirts with less than a weeks notice does that mean I am good at it?

It hit me...Why am I majoring in science when art fills every aspect of life? Should I pursue art?

I dont consider my self an artist.
To me an artist is someone who has mastered all aspects of art. I haven't even come close, I still haven't achieved perfect pitch nor even photography.

dissapointment

I have never been so dissapointed in my life...

Thirsty Thursdays

To bad this couldn't be a TV video short.

I was washing dishes in the bathroom..because its closer than the kitchen and a few of my floormates and a friend barge in-- P-A-Phi has their rush party today--Jon comes barging in telling me how drunk he is and how two of our other friends hooked him up...exciting news isnt it? Normally hes pretty quiet but as a drunk he seems pretty much the same but a tad bit more outgoing. A few seconds later Adam barges in and then Tony(a girl) tries to come into the mens bathroom also. Adam tries to push her out while Jon is telling her how she has no balls and therefore cant get into the bathroom. I continue to wash my dishes as sam's roomate comes in complaining how sam is barfing on the floor. He leaves the room and my floormate dressed as a cowboy runs in looking for sam. I finish my dishes and leave.

Do I ever get jealous or miss this? I sometimes ask myself...the answer is actually no. I try to think of myself as a long term economist where I know that God has a plan for me later somewhere in my life. I guess I just expect him to have a better path for me. Is that so wrong to expect something from God? For some weird reason expecting things from God seems so wrong to me.

When I abstain from worldly pleasures whether its lust or "breaking the law" by drinking or whatnot. Amazing things seem to happen. I feel like God gives me opportunities and when I take them I'm taking the path that he wants me to. I'm concerned about myself but also my peers.

Someone tried to explain how vicodin feels to me today. She asked if I ever got high...I said no...If I ever got Drunk...I said no. She finally related it to Food coma, something that I have plenty experience in. I want to help people realize that Christians are fun people too. You dont need drugs or alcohol to have fun. I think thats my goal...

I just got a Aim message. One of my christian friends is drunk.

Psi Chi has a party tomorrow. I'll go with her. I would hate to see her get drunk again. We are Christians we are supposed to be different.

I decided to type this whole post without my glasses.The world seems to be so much nicer when I cant see.

Update

Life is pretty crazy sometimes. A lot of things are going on. So turns out that I think I damaged my vocal chords from spring con. I really need to stop stressing my voice when I scream. I just can't scream and sing at the same time. Now I have trouble doing falsetto. Sucks cause Liquid hotplate auditions are coming up.

I'm really curious where the Lord is going to take me. Today I was asked to Emcee for IV large group next week. Funny since I was planning on skipping cause I have my fraternity rush week and I was going to attend all the events. So I decided to skip one day of the rush. I'm really excited to see the rushies and the potential pledges. I wonder who is going to show up.

April fools day is officially over and I realize how mean people can be...i'll just leave it at that.

April 11 is my fraternity's multicultural night. I'm gonna Emcee so I hope a lot of people can attend. But turns out that its Stacy's birthday, IM baseball championships, and IV womens and mens group. I wonder who will actually be there so support me. I'm kinda nervous and excited, I wonder what road I am walking down.

Merry Christmas

It annoys me when people put "xmas" I guess Christ can be substituted with a simple X huh?

I guess I can never really stick with a schedule. I always do things on my mood or impulse. So my project kinda died. Although I am still taking pictures. I made cheesecake today...which epically failed. But thats ok.

I'm really excited right now since tomorrow I will be going to reno with some family friends. WE used to have a tradition of going to lake tahoe every weekend. But recently they have been going without me. Because my parents simply dont want to go. So I'm basically going without them. haha

I got my watch back today from the shop. I really need to take care of my things. I cant risk breaking the glass on this watch. I just replaced it.

I look at you like my older brother. You are the brother that I never had. I know it sounds weird but I'm just glad that we are friends. Thank you.

Day 2 Poaching eggs

So today I was going to poach eggs. Poaching eggs are way harder than they seem. Its such a genius design. Its like a sunny-side-up egg and boiled egg combined in one. The firmness of the egg white and the liquid yolk make a "to-die-for" combination. I'm planning on making eggs Benedict later on this month. So I gotta practice my poaching egg skills. Man my roomates are gonna be so lucky next year. I can ask "how do you want your eggs?" I can scramble, sunny-side-up, boil, and now poach.

I have no idea how the pictures are gonna turn out. I wasn't so pleased with myself. Poaching eggs and making them look beautiful is really hard. How to food photographers do it? I swear there has to be some sort of magical tool that allows you to do it. I should check the container store or something.

Its weird. Now every time I look at a photo. I analyze how the photographer takes the photo, and I try and see why they did it in that perspective. I can finally understand why people can stare at pictures for hours in a museum. (Note to self, my first real girlfriend we are going to an art museum.)

On a brief note, I signed up for my drivers test! Its on the 24th and I'm taking it in gilroy. Hopefully no one will be driving on christmas eve. I really need to pass this...Or I dont....It doesnt really matter. I can just wait til I'm 18.

I still wonder who really reads my blog. Normally I tell my close friends whats going on in my life, but when I'm with them things never cross my mind, until I start typing them out. No hard feelings. Its not that I dont want to tell you, its because I simply forget.

Until then, day three here I come.